Being with him was like watching the sun break through clouds on a rainy day,
Yet, leaving him felt like I was leaving a life behind.
He was my home and he was a large part of my life, because not only did I care for him, but I'm pretty sure I loved him too.
How can I love someone who is so toxic for me?
Someone who made me doubt if I was good enough for them?
I am invested way too much and don't know how to dig myself out because he helped me become more comfortable in my skin, he showed me what it felt like to actually let someone in that I cared about, he was my first.
The first guy that grazed my skin and touched my heart:
He made me feel like I was fierce and heart warming,
That it was okay to be me.
I don't know how to live without him since he's been part of my air these past six months.
All I know is that I care about him and I screwed up, and there's no going back.
I just want to go back to where him and I were five days ago, elated to see one another and here we are not speaking.
So I allow these tears to run down my Cheeks because I know I can't be strong anymore, I've given up.
Given up on not only him, but us.
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