As your memory pierced through each breath I inhaled, I am okay with accepting you as my past.
I like the person I wish you were, the man I would want you to be, not the person before me now.
Thank you for letting me down, and thank you because without you I would've continued to walk around blind. Without the glasses to show me the clear vision that you are not who I believe you to be.
As utterly human and flawed as you are, I embrace your qualities; the lack of maturity, the feigned effort, inconsistent communication and empty promises you failed to keep.
I'm grateful we ended.
Despite the tears and heartache, I believe it has been for the best because you were never man enough to be responsible for the truth.
The truth that wasn't only asked for but expected, the truth you failed to share, the truth you failed to keep.
It's crazy how as time has passed since we ended, I leaned into the idea of who I romanticized you to be and now with each action I am reminded that you are utterly human and not a dream.
You chose to cause pain, you chose to lie, you chose to hurt those who only wanted to give you love.
Thank you for the pain, I am strong enough to sit with it and be self aware to not hurt another.
I was given the opportunity to feel again, and like an answered prayer - it's time to accept your chapter in my life has closed. May it never reopen, and may it stay sealed.
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