How can it be where this never ending sunny California is changing seasons?
New beginnings, new people, new challenges.
Why is it just hitting me now? How can our late night phone calls of us being eachothers background noise be so full of everything. You're everything I thought I'd never need, yet there you were, with your silly puns and long lashes. You made me feel like no matter what, as long as you were there, despite whatever is going on, you were there and it'll be okay.
I'll be okay.
But, that's not the case anymore because the connection that united us is now gone.
I can feel you pulling away, I can feel myself drawing away from you and learning to depend on the side of numbness, the cold, being alone.
I already know from my past I must be weary, but how can I be cautios of my heart if you're my very thoughts and breaths.
So, I keep you close and hold your memory dear. But, I remove our photos and videos together. This time, we start fresh, go back to our days of friendship. There's no use of wondering if you ever cared or not, because I know you do, you care about me and respect me; just don't feel the same way as I do about you.
You're a lost boy still figuring out life, just like I'm a wide eyed writer soaking in the life around me. I'm healing and know I'm okay and I will be okay.
You're my first summer romance, and I'm okay with us just being that.
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