Last night, I couldn't help but feel this change, similar to a broken routine, and silent heartbreak.
Is it possible to still be with you while my mind and emotions feel miles away?
I don't want to care about you anymore, I'd rather forget your existence so long as this numbness continues. I fear for the day I realize you no longer need me, and are okay with me leaving.
You don't care enough for more, the more I so desperately need.
So, all I need is for myself to relearn how to be enough for just me.
My breaths become shorter and my smiles turn into silent acknowledgments, because nothing seems to matter anymore. It feels like I'm starting all over again and forgot how to play this game of life.
I don't know where to start, and even though I'm not ready, I know for myself emotionally, it's finally time to leave you.
