Wednesday, January 31, 2018

Take Me Back to Autumn

The sound of cool rain drops falling against the pavement echoes a murmur in the background.

Fall.

Winter?

I continue to listen to the sound of the rain and drown myself in my thoughts that pull me back to Autumn.

Flushed cheeks and sweaters, laughter and car rides against the ocean shore; seeking a destination from distance.

Explorations of discovery, adventures within hidden coves, and fading sunkissed tans.

It's a still winter day, but I'm brought back to autumn with its orange hued leaves, and nights gazing at the shooting stars.

So, this January I don't return to those needed escapes, but now seek comfort within my home.

I share warm cups of cocoa with my mother and sister, and smile at the holiday lights. My family and I exchange laughter when together, so I clutch onto these warm memories while closing my eyes.

I take it in, and soak in everything. 

And when autumn returns again, and I'm brought back, I'll close my eyes and remember the cool raindrops that made me feel so warm.

Warm Brown Eyes

I fell for his warm brown eyes that became more than just brown eyes. 

How could his soul kiss mine yet never touch my lips.

It's not that we weren't enough for each other, we just weren't right together.

Addicted like a drug.

He made me feel connected yet so far away. 

So here I go, letting his words strip me of who I am. I continue losing myself to a man that would never be mine.

I let him win and gave a piece of myself each time. There's no fixing this relationship.

I hate him and want him, yet know he's my kryptonite.